new xanga. theFlashbackkx [link]

i never though i'd see the day.
the day that me and this xanga parted.
how unfortunate. sigh;;

this is one good ass spin on one good ass song.

+ so this is the new year
+ and i dont feel any different;;

tomorrow? operation courage. me and salina and pretty boy got this down. crushxcore.

i had a pretty awesome, amazing, free, great-beyond-words day. if theres anything ive learned from the past year its that a.) the species of the 'man' cannot be trusted and b.) there is no use crying over spilled milk. both lessons are useful. and both are going to be used. hopefully. <3

cant get enough of your love baaaaybah.  i love that song. i was even dancing to it in the bathroom at school today. then somebody walked in on me... ah well.

today was quite great. french- took a test that i completely aced. resource- i always love resource is colettas room. journalism- i didnt go my good copy for my opinion paper, but he wasnt in anyway so it didnt matter. score. lunch- it was alright i guess. no lunch can beat last years lunch, so thats to be expected. bio- didnt understand much of this packet we have to do for homework tonight, but i did good on the pop quiz. english- something happens everyday in english. everrryones in that class.

me and jess had a close call after school though; and fortunately, it was the most fxcking hysterical thing that i have ever witnessed/had the priviledge to witness.

this is one of the first days i actually have told you what i did. and i even left out about the part of me seeing pretty boy. there is one guy that might be even mo' beautiful than pretty boy. and i saw him on buddy pic. and i am astounded no doubt.

even though today was all fine and good;
i dont feel like myself. wheres the usual complication that i find in my life? because i cant find it as of now. a let down to this is that everything is just so unbelievably boring. theres nothing to do. theres nothing to think about. and thats definetly not good. now i have to get off my lazy ass and make something happen for me before i become bored out of my mind. sure i could preach about what i think about life, but who wants to hear that? honestly. <3

now im gonna go get some chicken and rice.
then im going to begin 'the acoustic breakdown.' niiiiiice.
gangsterrrrrrrr.

ps;;   did you ever noticed the sign as you're leaving king of prussia? it says 'goodbye, godsend, come again.' how clever.

i just deleted everything. its all good now. his parents dont know it was me and salina who made the accidental call, so everythings fine. but a little word for you:

i am no ones play thing. i am not so easily changed. i am in a strange scenario.
its not my fault. i dont know why im so frustrated with this. i wish i could just let this go. but it makes me sad that i am probably in denial. i am in denial. oh goodness me. <3

question: what is everyone confused about? haha.

[im not visiting marissa on monday as planned. im supposedly still sick. my moms going today though. thats close enough for now, i guess. ah well. ---i wanted to go so incredibly bad. you have no idea.]